all could do was sit there
and scream at you through lowered lashes
even as i tried to ignore
the silent soliloquy that played out across your face
subtle shift of eye

i know how difficult it is for you to take that first step
you trip and fall into the part you want to play
but for me, i slip into my old role
as easily and comfortably as our favorite black dress

and i like to see that slow smile
keep it and hold onto it for as long as i can
bypass that exit and go for the long haul
and i'm tired of driving all night
to try to outrun his singing in my head

but the lonliness always catches up to me
and you know how much i hate that bonejarring emotion
so you climb into your inhibitions and meet me,
your armor against the human condition
and i wonder everytime if its worth it

we're cheating ourselves, you know
you fear getting tangled up in your emotions and i fear being devoid of mine
we meet in the middle of the shadow that was us
circle around like wary dogs
and barter for time as we fight our reflexes


you always did fear the tide, my visual one
you never did dare to fly over that chasm
but i am seaborn and tactile
i'll soar even as i fear to fall



we are still porcelain steel, you know


we are still porcelain steel