given enough time and patience
i would gift you with pain
the memory of what was
the possibilities of all that could be
your feeble brain would not be able to cope with the knowledge


given enough time and patience
i would lie in wait
show you the path you need to take
befuddle and cloud your mind with directions
so you could meander your way to the truth

my dear you are blind
you complain about your inability to see
and i warn you that the vista isn’t what you imagine
i would gift you with the Sight you so desire


and i would remind you of the warning

when the light blinds your eyes for the first time





Remind me to kill you when this is all over
Because you’ll never get out of this life alive

go on
try to keep your thought processes whole
as i skritch, scratch my nails gently down your back
let me remind you what it's like to be loved

go on
try to keep your wits about you and hold on to your will
let me feel your musculature shudder and shift beneath your skin
underneath my caress, my touch, my claws

there's no need to prove your manhood dear
i recognize that spark of life behind your eyes
i know what kind of man you are

go on, now
share eternity in a moment
catch your breath and try to figure out
all the different patterns i trace down your spine

love is insane
gives you hope to press on
when all the world tells you to give up
when you yourself know you should give up

hope remains
love stays strong

you can go to your grave with love
but at least you can say you have lived

don't want to change you
never did want to change you
i accepted you, all of you, long ago
you are who you are
and that's why i love you

ahh yes...
overreaction
reading between the lines
seeing things that weren't there

i can be such a goddamned girl sometimes


well, at least i didn't go overboard.

disregard the insanity of the past few days


...thanks

alone...lonely

no, they do not mean the same thing
one is positive, the other; not so much
you can be alone without being lonely
that is the favorable way to be


still trying to reach that point
alone without the loneliness



but all i have is loneliness
and i'm being left alone

you try to see in black and white,
try to ignore the blends, the greys, the colors
while i see a million shades of blue
and
my chromatic vision...

i see black and white as nothing more than
colors on the palate

highlights
shadows


black and white isn't all what life has to offer
don't limit yourself to what you want to see